Blurry

This picture sums up how I feel these days. Happy but a little bit blurry. It's like everything is a little bit out of focus all the time. Some days I feel so overwhelmed with everything thing that MUST happen on a day to day basis that I forget to think about the little things.

Decisions seem so hard, things the kids do that are frustrating take on more importance than they should. My fuse is shorter than it should be. With having a family of this size I tend to forget about ME. Yes, the capital ME. Time that I need to take for myself in order to make me a better more focused parent. Learn to let go of the little things, know that there are challenges everyday big and small, every-day.

Look around stupid! You have 6 healthy happy kids, a great marriage with a husband that you Love (yup capital L), more than anybody deserves. Does it seriously matter that there are piles of clutter on the counter, that dishes sit in the sink longer than they should, that sometimes one of those healthy happy kids misses a shower for a couple of days?

It shouldn't but some days when my life is fuzzy and not in focus these things seem like all that matter. The edges get blurry and I yell far too much, I try too hard for perfection or just give up and announce I QUIT!

And then a look, a word, a touch, a smile and the focus gets clearer. I look around at all I am blessed with and vow to keep this feeling with me. To keep the FOCUS! I need to keep pushing forward and remember "Mama said there'd be days like this". And in all honesty if there wasn't a little bit of blurry in our lives how would we remember to appreciate the clear days.

'til next time